before 2010 comes to an end..

before the year comes to its end..
before 2010 change to 2011...

i would like to say that i'm sorry.. to all.

yea, to all.

well, people do mistakes n sometimes they keep repeating the same mistakes.

so, again..
..SORRY..

and...
i would also like to say THANK YOU..

i've listed all the apologies i wanted to make..

and i would like to make a list of appreciation too ;)

to the Almighty,
thank you.. i'm grateful for having You in my life..
thank you for being there every second and every millisecond for me..
thank you for choosing me to be born as muslim..
thank you for the chances of living this life..
thank you for giving me the chance to change..
thank you for every breath that i took..
thank you for giving me lovely people around me..
thank you for everything..thank you, thank you, thank you.. 
though thank you would never be enough..
THANK YOU, ALLAH.. ALHAMDULLILAH~

to my mama! =D
i love you..
eh, i want to say thank you bha pula.. okay..
dear mama,  
thank you for all your hard work and sacrifices..
thank you for your not-sleep-at-night when i'm sick.. :')
i will never forget that..
thank you for all your guidance.. without your guide, i might choose the wrong path in life..
thank you for every bits of your love you gave me.. i'd never lack of it.. 
i'm glad to have a great mother like you mama.. i will always love you :)
thank you for everything, yea E.V.E.R.Y.T.H.I.N.G.

to my aba,
i love you... opss, don't say it, prove it bha pulak kan :D
thank you for being a father who was always there for your kids..
thank you for your patience and care which never ended..
thank you for your trust on me as the oldest in my siblings..
thank you for being faithful.. to my mama, to us, to everybody..
thank you for showing me what love is..
thank you for teaching me what loyalty really meant..
thank you for proving to me that guys weren't all the same..
you are the great father ever.. i just love you too much! :')
 
to my siblings,
thank you adek for being a very supportive and loving sister..(jangan kembang sana :P)
thank you waya for being a very 'sengal' sister.. hehe. study well for your PMR okay? :P
thank you umai for being a very sweet sister.. huahuahua. you're my lil buddy what? hee~ nanti dapat hadiah dari mesir for your UPSR okay?

to my best friends who meant the world to me, 

thank you for being there to make me laugh..
thank you for being there to cheer me up..

thank you for being there to give me support..

thank you for being there when i cried..
thank you for being there when i needed someone to talk to..
thank you for being there when i needed all of you the most..
thank you for being there when others were leaving me..
thank you for being there to comfort me when something was bothering me..
THANK yoU FOR ALWAYS BEEN THERE FOR ME..

to the person with the name starts with an A a.k.a. b (haha. that's his name code in this blog),
thank you for all the bittersweet memories..
thank you for teaching me lots of thing that others had never teach me..
thank you for making me a tougher person on the inside..
thank you for giving me the opportunity of being loved and to love.. though it didn't last. haha. but that's okay.
thank you for saying you love me.. 
thank you for loving me..
thank you for existing in my life..
and sorry for all the wrongs i had done...
sorry for all the things that had happened between us...

to my new friend and already become my best friend forever, mr boss =)
thank you for the time you spent for me..
thank you for every single knowledge you gave me..
thank you for letting me to get to know you..
thank you for accompany me while i'm studying.. well, actually you study too :)
it's really been my pleasure to be friend with 'mumtaz' boy. friends forever! :D

hah, this poem i made specially for you...

one day when you feel alone

remember i'm at the end of the phone

  i love you so

and that must show

  that i want to let all the world to know

  i have a friend, that is YOU

  i love you for all you do

your face is so sweet and your heart so gentle

keeping me together when i'm going mental

telling me you love me and that you hold me tight

being there for me even in the night

thank you friend you mean a lot to me

maybe now you'll see

how much you mean to me

 

to the guys who happened to be in just a chapter in my life (or less),
thank you for the memories..
thank you for wanting to know me..
thank you for brightened up my days..
*just let's say we weren't meant for each other.. i pray that you all will someday found a great person.. someday, somehow.. but still, thank you for happened to be in my life though.. thank you..
 
to my friends, housem8, floorm8, classm8, room8, juniors, seniors, students also teachers, just everybody!
thank you for all the moments we shared..
thank you for accepting me the way i am..
thank you for all the lessons you gave..
thank you for making me the person i am today.. :)

NOW FOR THE SORRY PART;

to my beloved family:

sorry mama, sorry aba.. if i was a bad daughter, but i've tried my best..

sorry if i was not being a good family members..

sorry if i was not a dearly sister to my siblings.. but kaka still sayang kamu semua sangat sangat. always remember that i feel grateful to have sweet sisters n brothers like you all :)

sorry adek for not helping you out with your study because you're too far, at zagazig..

sorry waya n umai for calling you two annoying n not bothering both of you sometimes.. bad me!
sorry piee for always mad at you... jangan nakal nakal bha yah, be a good boy okay?
sorry wawan for not being there when you are growing up... nanti mesti wawan nda kenal kaka kan :'(

to my so-called-besties-masrah, rozana, farah, sofi, anie, nad, sarah:

sorry girlfriends if i was not the better friend.. i know i'm not...

sorry girlfriends if i'm not there for you..

sorry if i forgot to ask how's your day..

sorry if i was too busy..

but always remember, you all are my friends dunia akhirat insyaAllah :)

to my mentees, ili, dayang, neesa, anie, sofi, nad, sarah :

sorry if i'm not a good mentor..

sorry if i'm not giving a big help in ya'll study ..

sorry because i'm not planning well on our meeting...
and there is one thank you for ya'll, thank you for ya'll cooperation and time to our mentor-mentee program... i'm really appreciate it... :)

to just everybody, my friends, housem8, classm8, room8, juniors, seniors, students also teachers, anyone!

sorry if i don't bother you.. sometimes i just want my own quality time..

sorry if i don't reply your message.. i just want to be alone or obviously i have no credit. haha XD

sorry if i forgot anyone's birthday..

sorry if i forgot bout anything that i owe u.. i'm forgetful.. just tell me if there's one okay?

sorry if i hurt your feelings.. i know i've already done that. to my floorm8, sorry for everything i've done to ya'll. just hate me if you want, but still i want to ask for ya'll forgiveness... please forgive my mistakes, give me chance to change :'(
and sometimes i can be very outspoken + too honest + straightforward... but who already know me will know that sometimes i don't really mean what i'd said..

sorry if i'm not a good leader.. i've tried my best...

sorry if i was being too secretive n annoyed you.. sometimes i just need privacy..

sorry if my mood swings in a sudden.. sometimes i have problems n i don't feel like talking bout it...
SORRY :(

sorry if i ever forgotten to say that i'm sorry
sorry for everything :) 
halalkan segala makan minumku, hutang hutang ku, dosa dosaku, semua la! 
dan terima kasih untuk segala-galanya. :)

lastly, GOODBYE 2010~
(padahal 11 hari lagi baru new year)