once a girl is betrayed, you're never gonna get a full trust from them again.. trust me. we easily forgive but hard to forget. don't ever break a girl's heart. :)

it's not perfect..

You know how it feels like to be judged?

I mean prematurely judged, the person doesn't even know you and yet they are making assumptions based on what they hear from other people or what they see on social networks.

Or what it feels like to be stereotyped because of one fact?

Honestly, it does not feel very good, harsh even, and it makes the person at the other end feel like crap.
I just don't know what to say about people nowadays.

owh, baru tahu! :D

p/s; patutla pakai kat situ.. :)

some things don't appeal to me

The concept of forever. I'm sensitive to the "I will love you forever", "I will wait for you forever", and all the sorts of forever quotes. Just my opinion, you're free to say whatever you want. :)

Why? Easy. I don't believe in that words. I'm not a firm believer in the concept of eternal love (unless it involves God). I don't believe that one person can love another person forever. In case you don't have a calendar, forever is a VERY long time, you sure you can stand that? I doubt it. Through out your life, you will meet different people, people who you find attractive (or repulsive, whichever). You will change, your feelings will change and your perspective will definitely change. How you see things when you were 10, is not the same as how you see it now. How will it be when you turn 30 then?

Sure, its pretty sweet when someone says it too you, and you go all warm and lovey inside, but yes, just for the moment. I've had a few, and sorry, I was sarcastic about it, no warm fuzzy feelings went through me. I just can't fathom why would people say that when they know how unpredictable things are, especially things concerning the future.

What I believe, is in now. Now is all you have, you can make it whatever you want instead of promising in something for forever. Or, at least something of a given time line, say, 5 years? At least that's more believable for me. So yea, don't 'words' me with forever and the next day go run off with some skinny model like female.

Thanks.



*not intended for anyone. If anyone felt like I was talking about them, well its your problem.

what i feel right now?

you know what i feel right now?

i feel like i want a cookie. not just any cookie. Famous Amos soft chocolate chip cookie, a giant one if possible. pleeease? :) i need the sugar rush, i'm under the weather, literally. its been very hot for a few weeks, though i'm thankful, i'd love to see the sun :)

i'm hungry now. bye. :/

a penny will make you..

when you can't choose between two things, they say you should flip a coin.
it's not because you'll get an answer when it lands,

but you'll know what you really want when its in the air.. :) 

i know what i want, and i know a lot people are not going to understand why i do the things i do.i have my reasons, people make assumptions.

so, should i still flip a coin?

my mood decided to play see saw..

guess which one is my mood right now?

men.. women?

Men always want to be a woman’s first love. That is their clumsy vanity. We women have a more subtle instinct about things. What we like is to be a man’s last romance.

count your blessings..

yessss. i'm very 'rajin' at updating, i am. since people have been saying how 'rajin' i am at updating, i feel like updating now. there you go :P 

but actually it's nothing important.. :)

hurmm... so what shall the topic be for today? actually, i have been thinking - wait, pondering (haha :D)- about something for quite some time now. sometimes, i feel like i'm so absorbed in my own little world that i forget that i need to step down and reach the ground again. like what? that doesn't even make sense? :P. 2nd attempt? it's just that sometimes, I feel like I'm busy 'melayan' feelings or what-so-ever emotions or the blabla in my head and.... blah, i really am not making sense today.
Not to me at least.
You guys understand what I'm trying to say?? it's okay if not :)

The point i'm trying to say here is - and i am now trying to think up of sentences that could explain, no, capture what I'm feeling right now, achehh haha.. - i sometimes forget that He is above us, watching over everything. and we forget that He is beyond great and that He has given us so many blessings. and what do we repay Him with?
what DO we repay the blessings with? 

what..? i'm asking myself too.. :)

ermm.. i should change.. no no.. i must change and become a better slave to Him in any way. doesn't care what others say bout me, i won't care any of them coz i will try to do it on my own way.. :) 

p/s; sorry for all the babble here.. i just like to write what i think and feel :)

resah..

ever felt resah because you are not resah at something you should be resah at?
haha :D

okay.. sekarang resah :(

pening..

seriously guys.. bila balik egypt ni? 
banyak sangat tarikh.. tapi ta tau mana satu yang betul >,<'
harap harap latest date tu betulla.. 26 mac :)

top 3's

THREE NAMES THAT FRIENDS CALL YOU:
1--seha
2--shakila
3--shake

THREE MOST IMPORTANT DATES IN YOUR LIFE:
1--19 May
2--30 July
3--21 Dis

THREE THINGS YOU'VE DONE IN THE LAST 30 MINUTES:
1--drink 'air tebu'
2--eat choc cake
3--checking my fb

THREE WAYS TO BE HAPPY:
1--hang out with my family or friends
2--any way of communication with him

3--kacau adik2 ku! ;P

THREE GIFTS YOU WOULD LIKE TO RECEIVE:
1--rainbow :)
2--big + cute teddy bear! but already have it.. :)
3--ring :)

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1--on9
2--blogging
3--cooking

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO FOR VACATION:
1--Mekah
2--Paris
3--Holland

THREE FAVORITE DRINKS:
1--air tebu!
2--air yogurt!
3--ais blend chocholate+pearl!

THREE THINGS FOUND IN YOUR BAG:
1--my purse and bank cards
2--lotion
3--al-Quran

THREE FAVORITE COLORS:
1--purple
2--black
3--green

TOP THREE HANGOUTS:
1--home
2--cinema
3--highway tawau

TOP THREE U LOVE SO MUCH:
1--family
2--him
3--best friends and cuzie

TOP THREE "THINGS" SPECIAL TO YOU (things only) :
1--my lappy
2--my handphone
3--my purse

people.. yeah people..

your biases; my ignorance.

memang orang semua sibuk dengan apa yang kita buat? memang orang semua mau tau? gaah. entahla. memang hidup macam tu kali. when you're different, people critisized. when you're plain, people critisized too. so in what way would you be? just when people hate you for being yourself, would you give up to be yourself? i won't. i repeat it again, yeah i won't. because at the end of the day, as they were busy talking about other people's life, they don't seem to notice that theirs were falling part, and eventually  you will see them fall one by one. only then they will realize that all they had to do is only correct theirs wrongs rather than talking bout others.

sometimes i do things i don't know why..

letting go is easier less hard once you let yourself

my condition; right now..

yahh...really hungry :(
kenapa kuat sangat makan ni seha? help me!
ili, esok masak nasi ayam ya.. ya? pleaseee.. ^^

just a random one out of my bored..

i'm taking a break from studying right now and it's only for a while.. i should make this clear enough so that i won't find any other excuses to procrastinate.. well i'm the queen of procrastinator, right? :P

okay..actually there's nothing specific to be talked about. this post was meant only to "release" my boredom.. huhu..

O Allah, help me
O Allah, give me strength to study
O Allah, give me deep understanding for what i've read
O Allah, give me good memory to remember what i've read
O Allah, give me your blessing
O Allah, make things easier for me
O Allah, may You grant me with success

i guess at the end of the day, HE is the one whom we turn to,right?

I guess, i better get back to prepare for my presentation this afternoon. if i've time, i'll share some pictures of our 'presentation day'. :D

till then
buh-bye and assalamualaikum! :D


p/s: dear friends, pray for me will you? :)

we will be a dream..

i believe that there will be someone out there for me. i believe that i will heal when the right time comes. i believe that i can wait until everything will be fine again. i believe i will have my turn to feel the happiness again. i believe that one day my dream will come true. i believe that my patient worth. i believe that everything will fall back into places. i believe that every hurt i felt right now will end someday. i believe i can forgive perfectly. i believe that i can forget whats meant to be forget. and most of all, i believe i am strong. and i believe, that you can do it too. :)

when the lights go on,

we'll be safe and sound,

take the charge of the world,

like its all that we have to hold on to,

and we'll be a dream.

bahagia kerana kamu.. :)

:)
coz it makes me smile too..

and do you know that..

so please note this,

 i just want you to know..

but most important is,

because..

always remember that,
~YOU ARE MY PRECIOUS MEDICINE~

dare or not??

i want to be one of those apples which are on top..

bolehka??

hari ni aku mau tido ja...

hp letak jauh jauh...

kasi silent...

aku mau sendiri malam ni..

aku ta mau fikir apa apa..

mau fikiranku kosong saja..

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