i am saying it out loud.
this is for those whom i had hurt, whom i had cheated, whom i had thrown away purposely.
I AM SORRY, and it comes within me.
how bad i acted, how screwed i am, i wouldnt care whose fault is it now, i am sorry i messed up, or even entered your life. i am coming clean now. i'm getting fed up on how life works, someone has to end it.
understand me, sometimes i just felt like the universe is about to crush me, and my heart is about to explode anytime. and i felt that insecurities, and how i hated the way you guys talked about me; critisizing the way i lead my life. everyones got a chance to make a choice, including me. i got my own way, and so does you.
to dotdot (cant say his name here), i just wanna apologize if i am being rude and too harsh before. i know it's my fault, and i am asking for apology now.
i never wanted to hate, but as if you wanted it that way, so i go with the flow. sometimes i just wanted to stand for myself, but my words hurt your feeling as bad as it hurts mine. sometimes i just dont wanna look too weak, so i fight back. or maybe it hurts so bad that you took one of the precious thing in my life, i just couldnt have it back. it's now; WAS PRECIOUS. no, i'm done with blaming accusing and all, this time i just wanted to say sorry if i hurt you. and sorry for that smsing and calling thingy, i just cant seem to face reality though before, but now i'm handling it very well.
and yeah, i know it doesnt matter for you anyway, but i'm forgetting all of those things that hurt me before. i really am moving on. and i forgave everything.
and now that i have done my part, i dont hope for anything in return, i just know i had to do this. i cant keep any of those anger in me anymore.
my regrets, i just want to start a new page.
pheww :') legaaaaaa...